Friday, November 13, 2009
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is SO FAT.
so while she works towards doing well for the FAs,
she will exercise more too! ><"
EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE!
and she'll post on whatever happened so far ... SOON haha
5:54 AM;
Sunday, September 06, 2009
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blehx. I AM SO GONNA MISS 410 in the future. despite my sister bad mouthing saying that if she was in my class she wouldn't like the class at all. well she's just a pessimist. (:
10:39 PM;
Monday, August 31, 2009
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my day was a BANG! :D
despite the many other nervy things, when i think about all of today's happenings, i'll just smile to myself.... (:
410, thank you for rocking so much.
congrats to mr shone for winning the most charming male teacher award
mr lim for winning the most humourous teacher award
mr tan for winning the most approachable teacher award
ms sabrina for wining the most energetic teacher award!
i almost cried, when i was thinking about how all these are the last time already...
sometimes teachers' day does fast forward time and makes you start feeling nostalgic more doesn't it. :/
i'm sure everyone in 410 is super proud of huili and xiaoen today, they were FANTASTIC. FABULOUS. FUNNY and FLAMBOYANT[xP]. I'm sure the teachers had a great laugh. YAY 410. THANK YOU SO SO MUCH. hope you had thoroughly enjoyed your day too! x)
hearts 410.Labels: 410, teachers' day
8:35 PM;
Monday, July 06, 2009
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haha. before deciding to blog on my own blog, saw that someone had blogged on the class blog and went to check it out! (: so happy that yanquan blogged! x)
well this weirdo is still awake because she slept for 14 hours yesterday. so she shall not sleep today.
she is supposed to be using this time to study. but she has been obsessed with kim hyun joong. and spent the time on watching him on we got married drama and ss501 songs and stuff. zomg. this is bad she is idolizing. ): oh wells.
she now decides that she like the band ss501. not crazily. just that their songs aren't that bad. (: the jap ones especially! xP and she is hoping to get their newest jap album tomorrow! xD
she isn't intending to face her math written assignments at the moment. she is fearful and terrorized to conquered them. SIGHS. well but she will do them! fighting!
5:18 AM;
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
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WHOA.
16.
16.
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16.
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16.
16.
16.
16.
16.
16.
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today marks the beginning of my 16th year! lol. right... for now, THANK YOU ALL OF THOSE THAT WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY TODAY! xD even though you may have only found out that its my birthday today cause/after you ate the cookie... HAHA. (: which is quite weird like i paid you with a cookie to get you to wish me happy birthday kinda thing.
lol.
still i believe this is like the most "happy birthday"s i have heard on my birthday.
i think i baked a lot more than i predicted... like i have some of those i wanted to give, but did not because i had no time to go around offering them. and i end up giving to loads of i-have-no-idea-who-you-are people, because when i offer my friend, her friend will want one too... so yeah. like i gave away 10-20% to those i have never spoken to before. HAHA.
and now still got like 30/40/50 left?
that's good at least i can still get to give to those that i did not mange to do so today. heex.
3:44 PM;
Monday, May 18, 2009
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well... i am turning 16 so soon!
HAHA. sounds SO WEIRD.
anyway... just want to say something about this HARSH FACT.
like i know i don't really know many of my friends like i know a bit but not really as well... i don't really remember stuff in one sense or another... but if you've mentioned them, i do do my utmost best to note them in my memory. if you said you like such things before, when i get you things i would look out that they would be like what you would prefer... (:
but i just want everyone out there to know, our friendship may not be strong, but someway or another fate has allowed us to meet and we shall part. but what remains most important to me is that i once got to be with you and that you show me how brilliant things can be how colourful the world can look and how brilliant a smile is to everyone. x)
and i am sincerely thankful that i was/am able to call you my friend before/still.
am baking cookies to bring this wed! just that i have NO IDEA if i should just bring the whole box of lock and lock or pact it individually. but that just takes up MORE TIME... but i also don't want to go around with a BIG BOX... HOWIE. haha take a step at a time...
EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT I SHOULD NOT ASK FOR PRESENTS CAUSE NO ONE OWES ME ANYTHING... but allow me to desire... afterall who doesn't enjoy being pampered? xP
and anabelle, thank you SO MUCH for the bag and card. it really made my day! shall send you a box of cookies soon as well! :D
5:49 PM;
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
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haha. cause my blogging fuel dried up. (:
i would come and view my dead blog too. then do nothing about its decomposition. HAHA.
well cool things have been happening. LIKE NYNB's fantastic performance throughout this season!
gym comps. gym dinner. meeting up old mates. (:
snap.snap.snap!
somehow pulled into the normal category of astrigue. x.x
my brain totally shut down after the event last sat. maddening.
oh and there was NE evaluation last friday too.
had a *no idea how to describe* time doing CIP last fri as well.
but in the good sense of course!
then charmaine, huier and cherynn have all turned 16! :D
checked out tampines 1 on char's birthday cause i went to T1 to pass her her card. (:
OH OH AND MY SISTER GOT ME SHIRTS AND JACKETS from china. HAHA. yays! more apparel!
OH $$$$$ where am i suppose to find them?! ><>
well done NYC, NYCO, NYMD, NYCB, NYGZ. crossing fingers for drama club and chinese dance! x) jia you to NYSE!
10:06 PM;
Sunday, March 29, 2009
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people are waking up.
AND I GOT MY D90!
thereafter am i now officially POOR.
SO STOP TREATING YOURSELF MAN! ><
7:07 AM;
Sunday, March 22, 2009
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i have not finish math portfolio. diff 1.2. chem spa skill 2 practice and chinese journal and 1 newspaper reflection. SIGH.
thank god i finished my 5 R&R though. (:
and my bike hates me. the right paddle dropped off today. while i was still cycling at bishan park. and i tired to fix it twice. grrr. and my white adidas pant got so dirty. :(
DID NOT GET TO CLIMB. D: FROM THE COMING WEEKEND ONWARDS I MUST! PLEASE MUMMY! :[
i don't want to take chinese block test. i can don't. since i got appointment that day. but then... i need the practice. argh. okay. i must stop here. OH YEAH AND I CLIMBED ON THURS! mr tan, ms teo, mrs tan, ms chee, mdm teo were there. but ms teo and mr tan went at 1pm so they left at 3pm... i completed 3 climbs that day. was too tired to complete the 4th. found it tough, but perhaps it was just because i was too tired.
am climbing again tomorrow. YAY. must climb MORE. climb climb climb. YAY. but on thurs, i forgot to admire the view after i reach the top. :x. oh wells. and there's no view to view in nanyang. lol. ok. BYE.
10:30 PM;
Thursday, March 19, 2009
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hmm... i've finally gotten my long await table. but am i doing WORK on it?
no.
stupid girl!
i know how we are always told to look forward, to look ahead. but then again, we are told to treasure our time, treasure our moments. which i will take a longer while on reminiscing.
though i am well aware of the fact that the yesterday will never reply. just can't help to wish for the pasts.
heh.
have been dreaming of many people. zomg. like... mr shone. wong peishan. gym people. O.O haha.
and i just realised how weirdly phrased my wishes are. like to leave plentiful great memories. yeah i may have them but then after i die, they won't be with me anymore, would they?
haha, and to get good grades, i mean it shouldn't stop even after i graduate right. i should be setting goals for everything i do right. lol.
and thank god practical 5a&b aren't part of the progress report cause i forgotten to hand them in. :P
12:58 AM;
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got a bike.
got the climbing shoes.
NOW I WANT MY D90! :D
12:51 AM;
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
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so sorry to forgot mentioning this. last wed. someone close had left for a better place. i am sure he is much better there now. he was so brave and strong and fought his journey hard. watch over them and i am glad that they are much much better already. though i am sure they have some questions which can never be answered. i am sure they are stronger after this. thank you very much i was my great pleasure to have known you. (:
8:03 PM;
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alright. let's see. went to see my PSYCHOLOGIST (not psychiatrist. :X) yesterday. the session was rather horrible. but. it shed light. :/ it forced me to break open some parts. so yes, vexing and trashing. shrugs. shall be back later! lots of work to do! =S
physics worksheet 15.1, (was there a 15.2 as well?) 16.1, 16.2
chem worksheet 5 and 6
maths DIFF 1
geog corrections.
CAIJING has lots to face. yippy.
7:43 PM;
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how interesting the night and the night after and even (till?) last night i have been dreaming of our teachers and my classmates and school friends... WORSE STILL THE FIRST NIGHT I DREAMT OF STILL 'CAMPING' BUT A DIFFERENT VENUE... the teachers that appeared in my dreams were those part of the graces camp and many classmates and school mates. haha. i'm quite a freak huh? when i like or treasure or think of something. LIKE A LOT. they would be part of my dreams as well. :P. got other things to share. but i shall go sleep for now. :D
12:15 AM;
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
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:D shall go pack my luggage (for graces lol) now! and (mr shone) why is it weird to have white track pants? :) in fact i have 2! haha 1 from gym and one adidas one... :D then then then I shall bake cookies! since i have promised audrey lee!
oh oh oh and i got something to SHOUT OUT!
today my mummy made many french toasts again. brought to school to let classmates eat. then after recess i was left with 4 pieces. as the last lecture ended late, i did not go for lunch. i left my french toast tupperware in class after recess. i was ultra hungry after the whole career conference had ended. happily thinking that i still got 4 more french toast in the tupperware waiting for me to eat. (: and i returned to class. so i immediately went to grab for my tupperware. (hmm it feels rather light) and i lifted the lid. "empty" TO MY HORROR, MY FRENCH TOASTS WERE ALL GONE! (mind you i was really hungry!) so i went, (WHY IS MY TUPPERWARE EMPTY?! WHO ATE ALL MY FRENCH TOASTS?! THERE IS SUPPOSE TO BE 4 IN HERE!) and i found out who they were. but i was still hungry... then i went to the canteen to eat some food. haha.
alright pack pack pack.
then bake bake bake! (:Labels: french toasts...
8:29 PM;
Sunday, March 01, 2009
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has works UNCOMPLETED but don't feel like completing them. and actually haven't even started on the IH one... :X toddles.
9:44 PM;
Thursday, February 26, 2009
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you will never know how much i regretted because i insisted on quitting gym
when i actually still love it very much. ._.
was glad that i went to support the tennis game yesterday. even though that's why i am still up at this time.
at the same time, forgot to mention on the class blog. sorry if my support turned to be pressure adding onto you. but i meant for them to the well. really hope to see you overcoming this mentality issue real soon yeah! :D
12:01 AM;
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
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has been holding pen for long periods of the day such that now when i pick up the pen to write.
IT HURTS!
did chinese compo in class on my ideal smrt service [which sucked].
finally completed the hei zhen compo as well, taking 3 hours.
this early morning and now, chem trial 2. SORRY MR TAN! :(
wonder if i'll actually bake in the morning! :X i shall apologise in advance in case i do not wake up. >.<
SORRY AUDREY!
and i just realised how sucky doing the math portfolio reflection would be. sigh. that's it for ...
actually i have more things to add.
today's geog was different cause mr lim had life lesson instead of geog lesson haha.
like he's a 2nd class honors grad.
then that next time we should simply choose the things to stud in U for things we like and let our career be of things we like
there isn't really the point in doing something that earn lots and lots of money yet at the end of the day you are not enjoying and then asking yourself why are you even doing the job.
haha. today was a sleepy day as well... cause the weather was cloudy making all of us sleepy. zzz.
and YAY to the netball team for winning today's match!
let tomorrow's tennis and badminton match be successful as well! :D
11:04 PM;
Monday, February 23, 2009
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just baked new kind of muffins! the HEALTHY KIND! :D
haha honey and oats. (: tastes pretty alright! am still NOT doing chem spa skill 3 trial practice 2.
brought this big box of pasta to school today.
packed by my mum, totally got a shock as well when i saw its size.
haha. then quek ying help me ate this BIG portion, janice and wan ting too. haha and i gave the remaining to charmaine.
so sad. shatec do let me go for their youth courses! Dx cause youth courses only for school groups. zomg zomg zomg.
thank you sam for lending me your hanbok. cause val couldn't find her kimono. :x
tata shall get on to the chem trial! :)
11:43 PM;
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SO CAN'T WALK IN HEELS! D:
11:37 PM;
Friday, February 20, 2009
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BINGO! managed to change the skin's font! haha i wasn't sure where to change the body's font so i went back to the class blog to check and TADAA i've GOT IT! :D oooo and i changed the colour too. (:
11:59 PM;
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now after posting on the class blog, i shall post on my own! :D
maybe only little people understand that i bake cookies and give it to them is a representation of my gratitude to them and for being my friends... but its alright. (:
i think it is really true as much as the baking and preparing it hard work, simply words of praise is sufficient to brighten my world and make me feel that all was worth it and you are worth it. :D
i shall say this loud and clear, although i wasn't really proud of this reasoning, but they standing up for me and praising me superbly made my day or even rest of the week. :D.
let's start from the beginning.
GEOG: MR LIM - Let's check with our 四大天王 where is there long overdue assignment.
xiaoen. yanquan. quekying. caijing.
WHERE IS YOUR ASSIGNMENT?
ok xiaoen is know that you are busy marching
then quekying i know you are busy with your dance
yanquan i know you are busy with your netball, 打来打去.
BUT CAIJING WHAT ARE YOU BUSY WITH?!
me - SPEECHLESS. [cause i am obviously busy with nothing but just not doing]
here comes my heros! lol
audrey&charmaine - SHE IS BUSY BAKING COOKIES! THE COOKIES SHE BAKES ARE VERY NICE! :D (somewhere along this line)
WHOOPEE! haha you have NO IDEA how happy it made me. i guess its comments as such that makes people that cook/bake willing to continue despite the sweats. :D
I WANT TO SHOUT THIS OUT LOUD TOO! :D
even though i have known this since LONG AGO, I LOVE 410! :D haha. well, i may not have even a few close friends, but majority of the class are caring friends and all are GOOD PEOPLE! :D same goes to the BRILLIANT TEACHERS! hehe. thank you very much everyone. you guys rocked my 2008 and will flip my 2009. xD
and YANQUAN i love your 20 feb post. its so CUTE! :D hehe.
10:53 PM;
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
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finally changed the skin!
dreamweaver rocks! i can finally open the downloaded blogskins! with the help of Dw. and it aids me in seeing the changes i would like to make even before saving it on the template.
gah.
got make COOKIES! have been making loads. just made some muffins this morning(@5am). and stupidly falling asleep during physics!
got to go check out mr shone's website and copy the necessary pointers! zomg zomg zomg.
had a weird dream in the evening.(horrible me slept for like what 2 HOURS!) :@
i am suddenly filled with determination to get back SPORTY! i hope to join long-d training and do rock climbing training! :D but feel really bad to ask ms tan if i can join the training cause i am not in the CCA and did not pay... :X will see how. want to get back my 1sts! and do 410 proud in the las t x-country! :D tata.
9:58 PM;
Sunday, February 15, 2009
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just a joke. and i wonder why quek ying is a taurus. lol. from yahoo.
The young lady primping and posing in front of a mirror? It's bound to be a Taurus girl. Taurus is ruled by Venus, the planet of attraction and beauty, so the Taurus young lady is label-conscious when it comes to clothes. She probably has a penchant for chokers, as her Sign rules the neck and throat. Suffice it to say, her stash of cash (and a Taurus always has one) will be spent at the mall. She can be a bit self-indulgent at times so help remind her that she doesn't need yet another pair of platform heels. Her appreciation for sweets and luxury could result in overindulgence and stomach aches. At the same time, she is practical and stable. She is extremely patient and dependable as she goes after her goals. Her ambition ensures that she is both hardworking and helpful to others. In terms of after school activities other than shopping, she might participate in golf or tennis, the better to keep that makeup in place. The Bull girl can be a bit stubborn at times and certainly holds a fixed opinion, but the flip side of this is that she sets goals for herself and is pretty determined to achieve them. She will follow through and complete projects that other people may have found too difficult or boring to complete. As a result, she'll be a good student and will undoubtedly go places.
6:11 PM;
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should i rant on more? lol... hmm... what am i really lost about? hmm. maybe more of that i am really tired of living, ITSELF. sighs. tired. emotionally tired. i don't want to give a heck. if people don't know how to appreciate the way I CARE. then forget it. its alright. we can just. FALL OUT. since you don't know how to appreciate, then you are equivalent to not being worth of it. boo. i am scared of truths so i run, i run with all my might out to loose its sight, its slightest shadow. that's how scared i am. as much as i may be brave to hear it, i am not brave enough to face it or accept it. ??? haha. i suspect that i am really turning deaf. i really dislike that fact that my sis hates letting me wear the aids. cause many of the times i REALLY can't hear yet knowing that i am suppose to hear the things. and its is not polite to go on say sorry i missed out the whole chunk, how would you like repeating your message again. boo. can't hear radio dj cause the car and road causes loud noise. simply can't hear you when there is something going on in the background and there is gap between you and me. i know that you are talking. i can feel the whispers, but i can't decipher your words. dangs.
5:49 PM;
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sometimes i am sure weird. well i wish that by writing on this blog, people will know how i feel and well will 'comfort' me... but sometimes i am so scared that i would post it on the other blog so my friends would not know of my thoughts and feelings and would not bring up lots of stuff. because i once trusted. it only takes that once to break all hopes. sadly, that wasn't the only once my trust has been lost. twice in fact once in the past 2 years. ha. i guess thankfully i managed to complain it last year and sis and pp helped me... zomg. anyway. qy not aqy. lol. just so you know what my sms meant was that, i cried 6-7 times within 12 hours. and you'll be throwing your hands in the air right. ha. so lost. just great. i have not decided on who to speak to. just in case if you do read this. please don't come and speak to me. DON'T. i have no heart for this now. sigh. i shall email my psychiatrist and that might be today or never. ha. dots dots dots. i had a sad and scary dream. oh and ironically i dreamt on crying while sharing with mr shone... like really badly. after i cried like 5 times before i slept last night. didn't have a chance to think before sleeping. was too tired. blah blah blah. i don't want to go to school tomorrow. sec school really sucks. as much as i don't want to go, i know that 1 day of school lost is like so much to catch up again... grrr...
5:24 PM;
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hmm. i don't know what to do. this really sucks you know. as much as i say that i am really realistic. when it comes to psychological, mentality my realism disappears. POOF. i really want to run far far away, go into a deep deep sleep, AND NOT WAKING UP! nods.zomg. i should so post this on the hidden blog. NODS. bye bye. :P
5:19 PM;
Sunday, January 18, 2009
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GO CHECK OUT THIS WEBSITE!
dancingwindows.livejournal.com
Girls clothings!
:D get some last minute chinese new year clothes for yourself today!
11:55 PM;
Thursday, January 15, 2009
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zomg. okay the previous post's date is WRONG. i'm sorry.
i tired very hard to edit it. but it FAILED. and i hate editing the date/time sort of thing. :D
just read xiaoen's blog. well, ganbatte! like you said only week 2, let's strive on yeah! jia you, i know you have your CCA and PSL duties. you have so much going on in your life. but that's cause He wants the best for you and He knows you enjoyed yourself yeah! (: strive on strive on strive on! :D
and thank you for taking care of me! (: as much as you have been noticing my movements, i have been noticing your silent concern towards me. (: [lol loads of smileys :X]
next, i realised that yanquan did not blog yesterday! haha. and i think she would be like "eh, caijing read my blog..." if she see this. lol. haven't spoken much to her this week, but keep going yeah! (:
i know i have a very slack life. haha. i don't really have any complaints for that. cause i am being more alert to my surroundings trying to absorb more and more and more. :D though i don't really know how to live life YET, but i am learning to improve on not making the lives of those around me hard. (: cause
i really hate to impose on others
did you know i like to be lonely? and did you know that it is not good to like loneliness? zomg i so freaked out but that article. it is bad for your health, so people, don't isolate yourself yeah! haha. i don't know, but to me, i think that what's wrong after all you come and go as 1[most of the time]? yes, i do know that even though the previous statement is a fact but living requires support from other human beings and animals as well, the living process can't be handle solely. oh well. i guess it was a good thing that my mummy insisted that i sleep with my sister and that she is never letting me have my own room. because she knows for sure that after getting my own room, i would end up not knowing how to communicate and mix with others. i never knew why she was so bent on not letting me have my own room when many of my friends do and i really would like one of my own. but i only managed to understand her reasoning these years.
i don't really like to talk many of a times. my classmate in shanghai asked me this [i was really quiet throughout the computing lesson and even after that while we were walking back to their classroom i was keeping my silence while jessica and xinyi were talking] : why are you so quiet? (me: erm cause i have nothing to say?) don't you feel lonely? (no, i am kind of used to it already and i prefer just listening?) if i was you i would be trying to make a conversation and get talking (*silence, weakly smiled).
i am just like that and i don't really bother anymore if people don't care me or give me a heck. cause you can't force people to like you right?
moving on... i lost my will to live last thursday... not that i attempted suicide although there was this good whole hour where i had many impulses to do so. but last thursday it was like i see no point in living and was totally unmotivated and crumbled. haha. and quek ying scolded me after i told her all these.
i am totally going to die for tomorrow's geog prep. but you can clearly see that i am not putting in any effort to redeem the situation or make it better. i don't really feel like giving a heck for the prep tests... i don't know why. but i am not bothered by them and am more bothered about my current works. oh well[i tried really hard to substitute this cause i didn't want to sound conceded, but i still did].
one more reason to why i appear to be so paranoid over friends at times is because of my 'introverted' issue as mention above i believe... that's why i tend to treasure friends and say my thank yous whenever i can. i try not to put it on hold and do my thank yous. i also tend to stick to the few close friends... cause i am afraid to mix further i guess... i maintain a normal friendship with everyone, but only few of few are people whom i can talk too... shrugs.
sometimes i really wonder what would brenda think if i pour out everything to her. from mild depression, to attempting suicide to being introverted... i can't imagine what her reaction would be... i think it would trouble her... cause i am 90% sure that she never thought that i would fall into the category whereby i would be having depression and sorts. haha. i really want to thank her... i am a really weird girl. i remember when i was in the 2nd half of P6 and Sec 1 when i really dislike being near her or got to do anything with her... i still can't explain why i felt so, but for that short period of time i just wanted to be distanced from her... i was so horrible right? she's so nice and caring but i was being a mean little brat.
alright. everyone, strive on yeah! i may not be in time to give you moral support most of the time but i will do so when ever i can. (: stay happy and find your fun in life! cause life has no rewinding. and experiences don't usually come twice the same.
9:35 PM;
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
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i shall finally blog. :D
actually i have many things i wanna say. but i have been too lazy to note them down and blah blah.
so i am supposed to be asleep obviously. but i decided not to go to school tomorrow. cause my digestion is rather problematic these few days. i have been having 3 days of stomach ache/cramps and puking thereafter. :( and the doctor's medicine taste horrible! the liquid one even smells like some medical oil! zomg zomg zomg and it even brought my pain back. (before i consumed it i wasn't having the pain) bleh. lest i go to school then have the pain and cannot concentrate in lessons.
school have been cool so far. but the prep tests are SO undesirable! :( its like no time to prepare for them already. grrr. heck.
but i am liking school (: for so really weird reasons haha.
i sure have luck with weird illnesses. ha
top to bottom all sorts of problem.
geog lessons have been really interesting. except for the fact that we now have to specially travel to the library geog room for lessons which is so inconvenient. :( especially when our class is cooling and breezy enough. too bad that mr lim likes to be expressive and LOUD. (:
LA have been cool too so far. except that my commonwealth essay is still STUCK cause i have problems expressing my thoughts. ):
chinese have been easy going too. i must work hard on it. there's O at the end of the year! :@ but so far so good! (however, there was this day when laoshi didn't come and we had to do sihan. many didn't finish in class so audrey decided to hand in the next morning. even though i had completed it on that day after school. but i didn't go to class before flag raising and laoshi got to class earlier than me. so i got reprimanded and felt really bad about it as well. :X)
maths. haha we got mr khoo this year. he's nice. sincere. he tries really hard to make sure that we all gets him. (: SORRY i have not even started on my 15.1 ZOMG
physics and chem have been alright so far. i am so grateful that i managed to complete my holiday homework and chem ws 1.1 myself most mostly! :D as for physics stack of notes. they are now in the pile of my dad's rubbish in the middle room. [cause we are having a big big spring cleaning now which is STILL IN THE PROCESS] my bad!
i have gotten an exercise book for all of my subjects except maths. for notes taking and etc. :D 6 post its too! pink.orange.yellow.green.blue.purple! haha notes taking and passing messages! :D
i have YET to complete my goal of thank you cards. HORRIBLE ME.><> then on 7th, laoshi didn't come. that day xiaoen gladys chinwen yanquan and sharon heard xiaoen's sharing sparked off from sharon's questions as shirlene tieh taught them new history stuff that day. haha. well basically xiaoen said many things that leaves them pondering and thinking about. i was comfortable hearing her speak and i accepted the things she said. yes there are things sharon questions about. however, xiaoen, if you do read this i hope (maybe years?) down the road when you are more ready to opinions and others' thoughts. how should i put this. i am really glad for my mummy. cause she's so philosophical and she is always talking to me about my life and her life and teaching me the right values and how wrong i tend to act and that the decent way to lead my life. i mean, xiaoen, i really don't wish to provoke you or anything (i hope that you can take this we a neutral mind) its alright for you to believe that all non-christians would go to hell after death. its your belief so i am perfectly fine with that. so yes i know that if i want to go to heaven that i should turn towards Him. then again, i am happy with my life. i am doing things to prevent myself from regretting. when i make a mistake and done something wrong i choose a more practical method that is to apologise to the one i have done wrong to and remember them not to have a next time. things you shared that afternoon, there are people that may be angered/provoke IF they DO hear such things. but i would say you are right because people are granted to believe in their beliefs. so i also hope of 1 thing, that you grant others equal rights too and that they need not be affected by such statements. beliefs are beliefs. you come and go without them too right? i hope i have not said anything too offending.
hmm and i would like to thank mr lim ch. for sparking off my interest in understanding more about astronomy! :D during the weekend i did many read ups on astronomy itself and i came up with this thought of including it as one of my courses to take in U. HAHA. i have always been intrigued by the universe. [there was this children encyclopedia i am always reading when i was young. when i was bored i was take it out and flip and read all sorts of things in it. cause it was SO filled with nice pictures/photos! (: i would be reading on the planetary and universe portion repeatedly. earthly disasters too. haha. furthermore, i have always love to look into the sky and sought for stars. when i was young. i always think of living in a landed property when i am an adult and i would get a telescope so that i can view the stars whenever night falls! i even think of going overseas to live for prettier sky! haha.] yep yep. a dreamer child. *i found out that there is an international astronomical youth camp! but i can only wait till after A's or something if i want to attend that. cause it is 3 weeks in august. so. bleh.
i am so horrible and pesky for dozing off in ih yesterday and geog today! D:
haha am i have been a 'good' girl for not having thrown/burn/lost my student portfolio file and have been tidying it. lol. :D
the f1inschs WC's dates are most likely from 12-19th sept. zomg. we decided to go forward with it. (: oh right and it would be in london. we are now in advantage cause the GBP has dropped so badly that from £1 = S$3 is now £1 = S$2.18 yup. drop by near a dollar. i am waiting for it to drop further then i BUY! haha :D then after that i must go back UP UP UP! otherwise my airplane to london would not take off by then! heex. also. MONEY MONEY PLEASE START POURING IN! caijing is trapping herself in delusions cause she would need to 'beg' for them rather that they would pour in. anyway i am being hopeful of the review i submitted for mcys's selection! :D
and and and. YAY i am finally having a great possibility of getting a STUDY TABLE. ridiculous huh. for the past 15 years i have had no such thing. yes go jaw drop. anyway. possibility because it has not been ordered or so, but we have been on furniture shopping! going again coming sunday to the tampines ikea! :D revamp revamp revamp the house!
saw my parental grandparents on the previous sunday. my ah-gong (granddad) got jealous cause we were paying more attention to my grandma. (she was in bad conditions the past 2 weeks) so my sis teased him and told him not to be like that. haha. elderly troubles.
hmm. whatelse? i feel rather brain squeezed of thoughts even though i still have things to say... well for the next post or something. :P
i actually wrote this from 2.15-3.22am[finally finished editing at 3.59] of 14/01
11:54 PM;
Thursday, January 01, 2009
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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!wishing everyone great healthy and have a fruitful year! :D
2:15 AM;
Sunday, December 28, 2008
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zomg. iamsad. hmm actually nothing to be sad about. fearful perhaps. zomg zomg zomg.
i fell down yesterday. cause our my problematic gait.
i was walking down only 4 steps. the first step was wrong [cause my knee went weak already], i knew that if i continue with my next step, i would sure fall down. however, i could not control my next step and FELL. dumb dumb dumb. i did not cry... teared. more than i excepted. then i figured out that its because i have been worried that there would be this day when i would fall cause of my abnormal gait.
and that day had arrived. so my mummy is thinking that i got the spinal muscular atrophy disease. which i so TOUCH WOOD. but its scary... boo.
hmm and i also got my hearing issue... may need to wear the hearing aid. [i am scared that it would prevent me from coming in contact with water unexpectedly. like when rain falls or so then i get electrocuted. xD]
my right jaw is cranky too. STUPID.
haha its a long list right. lastly, my sole has got skin problem... hereditary.
my mummy says go back to exercise! so does anyone have a good sport to recommend that is convenient? and exciting and engaging?
i like to climb but yishun is 'far' waste on traveling time. ice-skating is worse cause kallang is even further.
forget it. let's just figure out what this whole abnormal gait issue is all about first before finding a sport...
i am going to polyclinic tomorrow. and i wonder what will the doctor say after i list him my 4 problems. i seem to need an ent doctor, a skin specialist and a neurologist. as for my jaw, i have no idea is it a dentist, an orthopaedics or is it just a small cranky problem. :D
that's all. oh right and i am so darn not prepared for my prep tests. 3 essays, 1 math chapter, 1 chem homework. zomg.
8:27 PM;
Sunday, November 30, 2008
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caijing is rather mad for not sleeping yet.(this was at 3am)
well you see she has just gotten a 320GB hard disk. and is busy transferring the photos that's in her macbook into her hard disk. since she has many unlabeled/ uncategorized photos... she needs a LONG TIME. haha... zomg and its it pretty much killing her... this is what she hates about taking photos... to categorize them and label them blah blah. oh well.
and she was rather pissed after buying her hard disk. cause just a few steps away from the booth she bought her hard disk from, she saw another booth selling the same brand's hard disks, for the same size she could have gotten one 15bucks cheaper! but that's an uglier and older version. so she is now comforting and cheering herself up. (:
after she returned from shanghai... her life has been rather exciting.
on the 22nd. she went to tuition and in the evening she went to a concert. lollipop and energy's. not that she is crazy about them but her junior invited her. and she wanted to spend time with her junior, so she went! (: she had fun with her junior. which was the main point. it was a standing concert, she expected it. nods. but she was feeling sick and tired that day. so while they were waiting, it was rather horrible. yep. caijing decides that she is never going for another rock/pop concert. cause the blasting music seriously hurts her ears. :(
then on the 23rd it was a HORRIBLE HORRIBLE day. cause she dad scolded her right in the morning and made her cry. he was THAT !$@@$^ that she nearly killed herself. she went to kitchen and took the knife. before he finally stop his attacks. so after that. she went to start bucks with her sister and did probability. they had yakun for lunch. and sushi tei for dinner. caijing spent 90bucks within those 2 days. :(
the 24th. caijing had lunch with sam and valerie at the serangoon martket place. they then went to frolick for some yogurt ice-cream. caijing thinks that though is nice, its rather icey. then caijing with sam, went to crash valerie's house! :D valerie's house is BIG. haha her room is BIG too. and messy. but not as bad as caijing's house. there were MANY MANGAS AND SOFT TOYS. haha. oh and MANY BAGS TOO. we didn't do much. but caijing had fun that day too. thank you val and sam! we now await for the day to crash rachel quek's house!
(this was later continued again at 7am)on the 25th, team racere had a meeting and stupid caijing was late. talked talked talked. oh right and mr shone has gotten the DNS for them. free web host. :D then they talked about their merchandise. what to do next. blah blahs. thank you jessica for passing your photos to me. :) oh and that the reforming of team? after it ended she went to get photos from zhiting. who has yet to pass caijing her complete collection. tsktsk. some 4GB size... O.O. caijing saw lejing on that day too! :) caijing missed lejing! hehe. after caijing finished copying the photos, she went to look for mr lim to seek his advice for geog SIA.
26th. caijing went back to get MORE photos. she got mr leong's photos and cao yun's photos. she had geog SIA meeting at quek ying house afterwards. before that she wanted to meet qing ying in school and give her a lift. but cause quek ying was in school for dance [she saw YUANYUH who has yet to pass her her PHOTOS! same goes to YUHE!] and caijing wanted to have lunch, so they left from nanyang to thomson plaza with lin kai. poor qing ying had to take bus all the way to the gardens waiting for the owner to return home. lin kai eats A LOT. we bought those cheapskate jap food from NTUC. i bought 2.50 kanimaki for lunch. good enough. linkai had some sushi set and a salmon teriyaki set AND [was there anymore?] well but i know she was still hungry. yup. SCARY. so caijing, qing ying and quek ying discussed. chat. did random things and qing ying had a tour around quek ying's house. yup. we chose some documents we felt interested towards. TADA. after qing ying left at 4.30 cause she lives FAR FAR AWAY. i slept for quite a awhile waiting for quek ying to return. on that horrible meanie [comfortable] sofa of hers. haha. then we looked at her beijing photos and the separate beijing photos her parents took. the shots were majority well taken. nice. :D caijing left around 6.30. yeps. and caijing FINALLY RETURNED QUEK YING ALL HER CLASSICAL MUSIC CDS. (after she forgot to bring them home on the 30th of Oct when caijing specially brought them for her. then after thinking that she is most likely to have forgotten about them, returned to nanyang and retrieved the CDs for her. then brought them home and left them for harvest for 3 weeks. while caijing was in shanghai). HAHA
caijing had a boring 27th. I HAVE NOT SAID THIS. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABILAH! :D. caijing was supposed to have her learning lab replacement lesson. but she further postponed it. :X
then on friday, caijing and yifang went to BRENDA'S HOUSE! :D to catch up with kelvin-koko and grace-jiejie. and play with their 'babies'! well keia is 9months and christian is 2yr 8mths. :) we were supposed to have lunch at her house. but we were late. so we had some porridge at home first. we hanged around. kelvin passed me some songs. i showed him my shanghai photos. and... [he was dozing off while i was doing the explanations. :@] oh wells. he napped a while later. the kids were already napping. brenda had to return to school to sign some stuff. lalalalala. then we went to swim. haha. i only swam 10 laps. you know how i don't really like swimming... so i took photos and photos of them playing in the water! grace asked "does it reminds you of your own childhood" i think i said no. but afterwards it sort of did. when the memories started to return. =/ shrugs. [it was sure fun back then. :) with peiting and changrong. at the hazel park playground pool. i can't really recall my memories of the jurong closed down pool...(found out on the 29th) apparently i would always jumped into the pool before i am well-guarded. like babies need their arm floats before they go into the water. but cause it always takes a long time to get them on... after i have don on my swimwear, i would head towards the pool and plunge in! haha. my mum told me that i was really reckless and daredevil. so whenever they brought me to a pool they had to be extra-extra cautious. otherwise i do run off by myself. :D that i remember. running off as i like.] as babies can't be in the water for long. it might hinder their respiratory system. so we showered after the babies had enough fun. :]while brenda and kelvin and yifang and i were about to reach her house, we saw her neighbour's huge giantantic dog! its half the height of an average sized guy, but its still a pup. had some dinner. transferred photos to brenda then left. yep yep. christian is so cute! and intelligent too. (: he will make a good big brother.
on the 29th. caijing went for tuition in the afternoon learning lab. then she went for geog SIA discussion at qingying's house. she left at 5.15 to Sitex fair. and she only found out that it is at singapore expo and not suntec at 4pm. zomg. haha. that's how she got her harddrive. :) she met yifang there. they wanted to get toners for the printer at home but mummy told them that she will fetch them there to get it the next day. they returned and went to j8 for dinner. at cafe cartel. some freaking expensive dinner it was. 35.75. for carbonna pasta meal and a dish of fried fish&prawns with waffle fries. their bread is good. and some stupid waitress refilled the tomato sauce into the chilli sauce bottle. ok. that's all. :D oh and she's is going to the fair again later! :) and she hopes to get a canon camera. but they are FREAKING ex. oh wells. she shall see how it goes...
2:48 AM;
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
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hello... my blog is stagnant isn't it? hahawell i have just came back from shanghai last friday 10pm... man was the flight HORRIBLE!
hehe i know cao yun would agree with me... there was lots of turbulence... the seat belt signal was turned on many times and the stupid entertainment system lags pathetically.
but thank god the food was pretty okay.
until you see the ice-cream. the freaking ice-cream, which all of us were hoping for it to be something like ben's and jerry or haagen dazs became a walls stick ice-cream. ZOMG.
=/shrugs.
other than that. shanghai has been fun. lousy me got sick though. from 3rd week onwards...
though i was hoping really hard that i wouldn't at all... man was it the worse sickness i have in my entire life... never have i had block nose that is THIS BAD! :( i can't breathe through my nose neither can i breathe properly through my wind pipe... stuck stuck stuck. sad. my nose was so bad that air couldn't pass through and air was stuck in my throat... horrible horrible horrible. =S now i'm still sick. =( in the mornings and nights only though. THANK GOD.
and my hearing got worse! may need to go back to doctor to start wearing hearing aid... :( weeps. but it is really bad these days... but with hearing aid... would you get electrocuted when you get rained on or jump into the water? AHHH haha... lame. need to seek professional.
great my sis is going out now. i am going back to school to get the photos. got to go! haha. shall share more when i come home tonight. got geog sia later. my stupid sister just shouted at me! :( 'stupid eh!'
10:55 AM;
Saturday, October 11, 2008
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the interesting sight in the month of oct.
its not halloween.
but
I'M FREE!
haha... realised that many people (EXCEPT NY GIRLS!) have been exclaiming on their freedom!
yet i'm being a horrible girl right now cause its obviously 4am and i should be deep in the -resting- mode but. I AM NOT!
YIKES!
so... oh well. you see caijing has an illness. a fetish with liking to be a way early bird. NOT.
i should stop all these contradicting speeches.
yes definitely looking towards MY FREEDOM! but not the returning waves.... i really wanna just RUN WITH ALL MY MIGHT AND ESCAPE FROM REALITY! cause i have no courage for what might be awaiting for me...
nah quek ying haha i won't try suiciding cause i'm not as depressed nor lost this time... regrettable perhaps? although i never seems to be able to learn from my 3 years of regrets... tsk tsk.
many things to do after the 15th... mainly F1 in Schools definitely. money. oh. money. wherever would you be? this economy is making my team's ticket to london next year translucent... )':
yay! mr samuel tan has found us the new member. don't find me weird for googling you... cause you had privatised your FB acc. it was just out of curiosity. xP
there's also GCP. to shanghai for 3 weeks... 3 weeks... finally out of family members reach.
I AM NOT INDEPENDENT. sigh. have heard it quite often... BUT I AM NOT. that's depressing. oh wells. just learn to be then! :D (my psychiatrist would say.)
oh man and the hols homework... SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.
So long everyone!
3:39 AM;
Friday, September 19, 2008
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:D bleh haven't post for a really really long... :x
yay i finaly got my long awaited adobe creative suite web premium 3.3 on september 5 :) they called me on 4th to notify me it's here and the next day i went to pay and collect it! then went to buy MORE MOONCAKES. =D at raffles hotel. installed it immediately once i got home. xD too excited. haha. but it was only after midnight, then i managed to successfully install the photoshop component. previously downloaded the trial, thus had to remove it through the systematic way to not leave any trace. and my stupid brain happily took the trial and throw it in the trash and emptied it. little would i know that my stupid way would not work. so i tried and tried and tired to install my paid copy. can't wort can't work can't work. finally i restarted by re-downloading the trial and way through those horrible steps and TA DAA i finally managed to install my rightful copy of photoshop.
let's see i exercised after a really long time on last friday(12/09). yeps... played netball with qing ying and her pro netball mates. oh right and i took that immunization injection for shanghai before playing too. haha wasn't scared for that jab. :)
had fun playing with them. though i was really clumsy. but qingying was really cool. she could score even though she's standing far from the hoop.
haha we were a team along with her junior. 3 on 3. opponents were cherynn, evelyn and shi hui. funny. when we first started off... then cherynn and team said something like okay let's use the strategy. then her junior was like eh they got strategy leh, what about us? HAHA... then qing ying was like we don't need strategy lah. haha. seriously we had no strategy. in between we were scoring quite some goals. then her junior was like oh i see so this is your strategy? ok i think i'm getting it. haha then she was like oO haha. FUN :] let's do it again kay! haha
oh and of course the opponents were STRONG haha. so pro especially gaining the ball. but cherynn can't pair with evelyn. when cherynn tries to pass the ball to evelyn [1/3 court to 'next to the pole'] the ball will end up flying out of the court. HAHA. but shi hui can pair with evelyn, cause when shi hui throws, evelyn will be able to catch it. =]
the extra dish was, we saw mr ng [maths R.T.] coming back while playing! haha then we all went hello mr ng! :D and he waved back at us!
on wednesday, stayed back for physics remedial. :)few of us only. even though others were doing the past year paper i was there completing my due 9.3 haha. even though that was the only piece i did within that 2 hours, at least i understood and completed it! hehe. found out somethings about mr shone too... like he won't be sending his kids to singapore schools but international school and that both his kids can speak chinese already yet he still is clueless of the language. :) jia you mr shone!
after that i went to quek ying's house with her. lol. took bus... to the city cab terminal. learnt that she watched 1 litre of tears with her mum and sis at one go and they filled up a trash bin with their wet tissues... all the way till 4am... swollen eyes later the day...then we had to walk all the way back to her house. zomg... so long... haha... did my last bao zhang bao dao in her house and she watched tian guao the jie ti with me... :) then she showed me the file with the bio-datas of ideal cameras to get her dad complied for her... not too long after, i went home...
went to KK's a&e yesterday. wanted to find out what on earth is causing my knees to give way when i walk. well nothing much... little known so far... have to WAIT. can't be nerve prob for sure, since i don't feel any pain when my knees buckle. nothing to do with heart nor blood neither since they are both fine and within range... mystery... today... [to be continued]
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Saturday, August 16, 2008
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体操开阔了我的视力。它让我在人生的道路上体验到了喜、怒、哀、乐、紧张、失望、等等情绪。
我是在听了幼稚园朋友学习体操的经验后，变有兴趣学习体操。妈妈说，当时的我特别好动，就像小猴子一样，而体操着门运动能让我消耗我多余的精神，加上是由专业的教练指导，便让我和姐姐报名了。
年幼的我，只懂得玩耍，只知道自己觉得体操很有趣，也很刺激，因此喜欢上了它。对我而言，那只是个爱好，一种消遣。体操能增强我的体能，对我的成长过程会有帮助。
渐渐的我也开始上小学了。因为我有体操的基础，上一年纪时，它便成为了我的课外活动。虽然在我小学的生涯里我从没停止体操训练，但在二年纪那年，我却决定了要在小三退出体操课外活动。现在回乡起，难免会对自己所做出的决定而感到幼稚。但是当时，我却是硬着牛鼻，一心想要退出。心里只懂得自己很累了，不想在着么拼命的练习了。最后，我也如常所愿，在小三那年换了课外活动。
相反的，小三那年我过得并不快乐。本以为会因为少了些练习，轻松了，而变得快乐些。或许是因祸得福，那年的停顿让我发现了内心真正的意愿。所以小四那年，我又加入了体操的课外活动。
在我五年纪那年，我被选进了集体学校的体操队伍。集体学校的要求很高，刚开始时，训练后都会感到特别疲惫。但是久而久之，身体也习惯训练时的日常程序。
同一年，也是我唯一一次代表新加坡去澳洲比赛。虽然我比赛的表现并非特出，但是那短短的一个星期却可说是我着辈子过得最开心的日子。再澳洲过的那几天很特别。早晨起床看到的就是队员们熟系的面孔，大家一起共度早餐，再一起做晨运，准备下午的训练。从练习到比赛的过程中，大家一起为彼此打气、加油、鼓励与制止使是让我们感情浓厚的原因。加上，大家都对比赛的环境很陌生，因此在比赛时会格外的紧张。
那次的经验让我发现到了朋友，队友的重要性。虽然体操是个个人运动，但是事实上，每位体操健将都是需要队友们来做自己的对手才能使自己进步。往往就只有身旁的队友才能在自己心情最低落时，扶你一跋。 尤其是在受挫折, 打击之后, 身旁的人给予的鼓励与支持是至关重要的.
在我小学六年纪的年份，我在比完七月分的全国校际比赛后，因为自己的失误，而伤了右脚的第四指脚指，穿了三各半月的石膏。在那之后，因为与队友不合导致了全体的情绪变得很疆。那位队友其实比我小一岁，但是是家中的独身女还来自富有家庭，因此队员们都不大敢惹她，害怕会碰到她的小姐脾气。在训练时，每天都有力量得做。因为在做力量时总会感到很辛苦，所以队友们常常会减少他们做的数量。
还记得当时，我对教练感到很矛盾。因为不管我再怎么努力，我的力量做的再好，他总是会对着我发脾气。相反的，那位小我一岁的队友，即使她再任意的偷懒，教练还是会对她微笑，与她开玩笑。我不明白为什么教练似乎从没留意到我的努力只知道我的不足。每当我被骂后，我还感到了些愤怒，不能理解教练的想法。最后，通过时间的帮助，和妈妈的开导，我便脱离了懊恼的事件。
或许是嫉妒吧？因为那位队友虽然爱偷懒，但是她有体操的天赋，在学习新动作时，在很短的时间内就能把动作学上手了。在我成熟了一些些后，我便学会了其实我会对教练不满只是我自己有着不平的想法而已。只要自己别那么计较教练所对我们的态度就不会使自己过得那么复杂了。这次的感受，让我学到了，既然我们控制不了他人对我们的态度，那在情绪低落时，就得调整自己对案件的看法使用着从另一种角度来面对它。
大家常常会问我，既然你热爱体操，又为何会退出呢？虽然口头上是说了受伤的理由，但事实并非如此而已。在我受伤之前，我对体操的执著以开始摇晃了。而当我知道自己以受伤时，便想借机退出体操。我成功的退出了体操界，完全没留下回头的余地。因为我一意孤行，虽然教练坚持反对我退出。
奇怪吧？现在回想起，我才发现，这已经不是我第一次退出体操了。既然不是第一次，那做出的决定应该是个不会让我又一次的后悔啊。偏偏就是有我这种学不会的人。错误一次又一次的从犯，让自己一次又一次的后悔自己所做出的决定。
当时后，我那坚定不移的精神会备受影响是因为对自己缺乏了自信心，也对教练缺乏了原有的自信。和我同年的体操员，都已进入了比我更高的层次。因此我便觉得自己已不再能挑战体操了，也该是时候了，便做出了个会令我终身后悔的决定。
因为只有在退出了之后，我才再次发现我对体操所存有的热爱。我曾经试着换项运动，但是，心里还是想着体操。这次的决定让我发现了我那一意孤行的一面。它也教导了我，避免有第二次，以后，在我情绪不稳定时，还是别擅自做决定了。听听前辈的劝告不会有害处的。
11:10 AM;
Friday, August 15, 2008
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i am definitely a mindless bull...i never learnt from that mistake i made in P2
and went on to commit it again in Sec2...
WHY CAIJING? WHY!
WHY DON'T YOUR EVER STOP AND TAKE ADVISE FROM OTHERS!
WHY MUST YOU WAIT TILL THERE'S CAN BE NO U-TURN AND REGRET?!
i'm sorry rach...
12:12 AM;